i hate this. i hate being away from her. and by her, i mean my ex-girlfriend. she hates me.
i know it. i can feel it.
and she's already probably moving on. or getting over it.
i wish it didn't effect me as much. i wish i wasn't so mindblown and lost.
now i can't stop listening to love songs.
which i wish i could.
i need to get over this.
my first and last ever real relationship.
my first heartbreak.
i don't dare delude myself into believing that someone else will come along and like me. i'm not stupid.
i'm no one special. i'm not even worth another chance.
but i can't let this get to me.
maybe i should try telling that to my heart.
i'm going to harden my outside core. i never want to be hurt like this again.
ever. i don't think i can survive a second heartbreak.
i can hardly try to consider getting through this one.