The Chain of Crazies

I don't know what to do anymore

2011-04-16T02:12:56Z

i hate this. i hate being away from her. and by her, i mean my ex-girlfriend. she hates me.
i know it. i can feel it.
and she's already probably moving on. or getting over it.
i wish it didn't effect me as much. i wish i wasn't so mindblown and lost.

now i can't stop listening to love songs.
which i wish i could.

i need to get over this.
my first and last ever real relationship.
my first heartbreak.

i don't dare delude myself into believing that someone else will come along and like me. i'm not stupid.
i'm no one special. i'm not even worth another chance.
but i can't let this get to me.
i can't.

maybe i should try telling that to my heart.
i'm going to harden my outside core. i never want to be hurt like this again.
ever. i don't think i can survive a second heartbreak.
i can hardly try to consider getting through this one.

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Rice and Study Guides...ugh!

2010-08-11T01:35:51Z

The title is wierd I know, but it came from my ranting when I was talking to my mom. Long story short, pretty much my life has dwindled down to rice and study guides. Depressing, Abnormal, and Redundant. Hey look now I can use a, what is it called, er...damn i can't remember...oh! *light bulb* abbreviation...DAR...i wish I could think of a E word that would describe my life...but at the mo' I'm too lazy. -_-

Such is the woes of my life....

Anyways....watching NCIS: Los Angeles, love the show! really stimulates the mind....especially when said mind is ridden with allergies a mile high. I feel so ewwie....*pouts* If anyone knows of a quick cure for this crap, please leave me a comment about what to do. *whimpers*

*sneezes, blows nose* yuck!

currenty I'm in the process of finishing my storie, Chasing Cars, and I'm thinking that there won't be a sequel for it so if it ends rather...unhapply don't go asking for a second story. *sigh* it's probably going to be one of my longer stories. *grin* such an accomplishment in my book I assure you.

Also, I have a new story posted on my ff.net account: Ameths, it's called Periodically, I Fall, below I posted the first chapter...

Now I seriously have to go...(stupid glitchy laptop)

ciao.

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Breathing in the Impossible

2010-08-04T17:00:31Z

Title: Breathing in the Impossible

Author: Tinker Siren (Ameths)

Chapters: 1

STATUS: Complete

No pairings

Genre: Hurt/Comfort, Drama, Angst, Horror

( Breathing in the Impossible... )

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Meh.

2010-07-29T03:42:32Z

This post is exactly what it says up there in the subject line. Nothing really. Um....my sweet sixteen is coming up, *cheers* that'll be fun. And I'm still taking summer classes....*pouts*

And now..I'm procrastinating. I need to be writing my stories. I haven't updated in sooo long. *sobs* I'm a bad person! Everyone must hate me right now. *pause* Maybe that's a good thing. *cackles*

Anyhoo, yeah...I should go and do something with my life. Hopefully I'll post soon. I really want to finish majority of my stories soon...

*GASP*

I need to finish my Graphics homework! Shix. *stamps foot* Maybe I should just transfer out of the class. *nods to self*

Alrighty then. Bye-bye. *smooches the screen*

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The Ed of Driving

2010-07-15T03:27:39Z

*bangs head against a door*

So let me tell you this crappy happening of my life currently. Okay, now in a few weeks time I'll be eligible in my state to apply for a Driver's Permit, ( I know, yay! me!).

but....(didn't see that coming)

when applying at my age we have send in papers saying "oh! I have no unexcused abscences!" which is freaking impossible because everyone has an unexcused absence hidden in their past. But can we say "fan-freaking-tastic" -sarcastically of course- *snorts at own with, clears throat*

I don't even know what to do with myself, especially sense this past year includes the most abscences I've eved had from school, well, EVER!

So I would like you guys advice. I have two options,

a. I could wait until I'm 16 to get the permit without the application.

b. take my chances and go for it....it'd work out.

....Please help me! I'm begging you! *gets down on knees, waving hands frantically*

Side note: I got a 3! on my AP Gov test. My first AP grade ever! *does a happy dance*
End note

~

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Welcome to the World of Tinkers!

2010-07-10T17:14:10Z

Hello, all. Welcome to my page! -giggles welcomingly- Here is where we can have FUN together. Like sharing ideas, I'll post when my next updates are, ideas for my current story, and how it's coming along.

And if I really keep at it, then there will be sneak previews of upcoming ONE-SHOTS and stories I'm writing. But you have to be good-wags finger-'cuz only good boys and girls get rewarded. Don't you want to be rewarded? -looks out into the crowd to see nodding heads- Good! Then you'll follow this one eensy bitsy rule to HAVE FUN! and Twirl around stupidly.

Now to other things....
Some information about me: (yes I know I have a profile, but I didn't put EVERYTHING in there, so where's the fun in that)

Name: Tink (not my real name, but it is what I will go by)
Age: Between 15 and 99.
Favorite Color: Black
Favorite Animal: Dogs(big ones) and white tigers
Favorite Actor(s): Johnny Depp, there is no doubt about that. He's my future husband.
Favorite Actress: Don't really follow them much, but I would have to go with Angelina Jolie
Cool Facts about me: I love mythical creatures, fae, vampires, were-, etc. Anime is half my life. I'm not overly religious, but I do believe in God and all that fun stuff. I'm a liberal and Sarah Palin has disappointed me, although I can honestly say she is the funniest Republican female I've ever seen. I love guys who have dyed pieces of hair in random colors. I consider myself to be a smart idiot an upgrade from a bidiot (a Bush and idiot put together).
Did I mention that I <3 cheese? No, well I DO! Swiss cheese especially. Oh, and chocolate is great, too. Coffee is my best friend as well as Vitamin Water and my BF is Emina, who's always been there for me when I've needed her the most.
Secondary Language: Some French, Spanish (though I'm fluent in neither)
Dream I plan to Aspire to: Working at Pixar with a degree in Physics and Computer Science. I will make a animated movie and it will be a success!!

so now that you know me a bit better! yayyy for knowing stuff that don't matter in the real world ~ have fun viewing my various websites. and comment. tell me about yourself, i want to make friends.

So please, FRIEND ME! ha!

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